my life life

today is a really hard day for me because it is somebodies birthday that I really really care about and really love and i cant show them.only god and me knows how much i love him and its not just no little type of love its that love love that cant get out of your head that love that have you waking up in the middle of the night thinking about them , that hurt love , the love where you cant take it no more the love when you know everything would be ok when you with that person. this has been the longest 6 months for me and everyday gets harder and hared .I thought it was suppose to get easier.WELL ITS NOT